Jenn's Birthday Gift

Here's how Jenn gave me my birthday gift.

--Jenn's YM shoutout: "I trust my LifeVerse"--

mitchiegirl: ano ung Life Verse?

jenn pinon: matthew 6:26
jenn pinon: parang fave verse mo sa bible
mitchiegirl: ay talaga
mitchiegirl: ako may favorite ako
jenn pinon: anu )
jenn pinon:
mitchiegirl: "...and my God shall provide my needs according to his will..."
mitchiegirl: hmmm ano na nga bang verse un...
jenn pinon: hahaha diko alam eh
mitchiegirl: lagi un ang nakadisplay sa workstations ko. tapos nung naglipat ako, nawala ung papel,
jenn pinon: verse mo un eh supposed to be alam mo teehee
jenn pinon: hahahahaaha
mitchiegirl: di ko tuloy alam kung anong book ba hahaha
mitchiegirl: e alam mo naman ako, di ako nagbabible study
jenn pinon: heheheheh
mitchiegirl: hanapin mo naman for me please
mitchiegirl: bday gift mo na sakin
jenn pinon: hahahah wait

mitchiegirl: bsta im not sure kung ano ung exact words
mitchiegirl: kasi ung last phrase ata is "...according to his riches" ata
mitchiegirl: basta na remember ko lang "my god shall provide (or supply) my needs..."
jenn pinon:
jenn pinon: nakakaloka
jenn pinon: hahaha
jenn pinon: wait hanap ko

mitchiegirl: My God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
mitchiegirl: Phillipians
jenn pinon: phil 4.19

mitchiegirl: yup tama!
mitchiegirl: yan i wont forget my life verse ever
jenn pinon: teehee
jenn pinon: yan
jenn pinon: bday gift ko
mitchiegirl: hahaha
mitchiegirl: thanks baby

So because of Jen and her birthday gift, I will never forget my LifeVerse. Although I was never good in these things-- the lowest grade I ever received in High School was in our Religion subject (a 78--can you believe it? Nakakahiya! Scholastican pa naman ako na tumuloy sa pagiging Lasallista), I have this verse that I always hang on to when times are rough, and even more so, when times are good. And as one of my best friends always tell me: Chie, God will provide.

"And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus."

Philippians 4:19

Waiting to exhale

Waiting to exhale--this probably sums up what I feel and what I'm doing right now. I am holding my breath and waiting to exhale, and I shall be this way until I finally make up my mind about my next step...

Actually, I am almost LITERALLY waiting to exhale. Let me describe to you how I'm feeling for almost a month now: I feel like my heart will burst from the uncertainty. I feel my heart beating, almost palpitating, for the most part of the day. I feel my shoulders tense up, as in literally hardens like a rock, when I start thinking or doing my tasks at work. And when I finally go home and rest and start to think that tomorrow will be another working day, my head hurts like it's about to explode.

These past two weeks, events and signs just keep popping everywhere. Events and signs that are probably telling me that I have to make another important decision.

Clearly, I'm not happy with what I'm doing. Should I really go back to teaching, which is what I think I love to do? But it means giving up the stability and financial security of working in the government.

Another thing is, I am thinking of working part-time for a month or two. I just want to take a break from all the pressures. I want to have a more flexible schedule so I can be with Nana while she undergoes her chemotherapy for the next three months... I want to take a break, and cliche' as it may sound, I want to do some soul searching. I didn't realise how confused I am, until one night, I googled "how to do soul searching". Am I crazy? Is this a sign of depression? Or is it just a lack of alcohol that's making me think too much?

You see, if I do decide to resign from my job now, it could mean giving up the fat bonus that the governement usually give in December.

But I am so unhappy that even the fat bonus which we will reportedly receive in December has stopped motivating me. And if I am not motivated, it results to being unproductive, to the point of not being able to do my projects and tasks well. And if I don't do my projects and tasks well, I feel incompetent and bosses will start breathing down my neck. And when I start feeling this way, I end up not wanting to go to work at all. Haaay, talk about applying The Multiplier Effect concept.

So here I am, waiting to exhale while considering my options. I'm giving myself two weeks to see whether I can still be motivated in my job. And a month or so to see whether the part-time schedule and compensation that the two schools are offering me would be worth it. And then another month or so to see whether I can find a full-time job that really interests me and which will, hopefully, put back the fire in this working girl's tired-but-still-beating (and recently, palpitating) heart.

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Question of the day

Do you love what you do for a living?

Love what you're doing, and money will follow. Is this true or is this just the view of a person who sees life through rose-colored glasses?

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A month ago, his F1 tickets arrived. And boy, was he thrilled. Almost as thrilled as he was on our wedding day. Azar noh!

A year before the big three-oh

I really didn't want to celebrate my birthday. No. 1, gusto kong magtipid. No. 2, next year na lang in time for the Big Three-Oh. No. 3, I'll be at the hospital with Nana on my actual birthday so I want to save my energy for her.

First to greet me were my officemates. They knew I was taking leave on Monday (my actual bday) so they gathered around my workstation on Friday afternoon and presented me with the usual hong bao and gift. They gave me me a very sexy game board called "Fun in Bed" with matching game cards and feathers and stockings hahah. Do I have "sex maniac" written on my forehead? I felt it was my Hen Night while they were all watching me open the gift. But it was cute though. I do hope Jun and I will be able to use it, despite the complicated instructions haha.

So after work on Friday, I was such in a good mood (shempre weekend na eh), Jun and I met up with Miller and Lori for some bowling. I basically squandered my $15 because my game sucked big time. But who cares, bowling was never really my thing.

On Saturday night, Shaf visited my place and brought a cake. Shaf and Jun told me to wait for the others before I blow out the candles...but I didn't want to wait for the housemates to arrive. I already wanted to just blow the freaking candles because the cake looked so yummy and I just want to gobble 'em up hehehe. Takaw.

On Sunday, may turo ako so I would leave the house around 1.30pm and I'll be back around 6.30. But when I got to the school, I waited for more than hour pero wala talagang students so I decided to call Jun and tell him that I'll just go home na lang and go to mass later. But Jun (who was at LP that time) told me to just go and meet up with him. Then we attended the mass at 5.30pm. After the mass, Jun said: Tara magtaxi na tayo. Sabi ko: Aba himala, si sir Jun gusto mag taxi hehe.

When I opened our apartment's door, I saw that the sala's aircon was turned on and the dining table was filled with food. Haha. And out they came from the bedrooms: the housemates, Nana, Lori, etc etc. Hahaha. No wonder ang daming nakakapagtakang nangyari that day:

Si Nikki ang aga aga nag-gagayat na ng bawang at sibuyas. E hindi pa naman kami naggogrocery, ano kayang lulutuin nya. Ang excuse nya, binabalatan na raw nya para madali na lang pag nagluto kami this week...Si Vice ang aga aga magsimba. Yun pala bumili na ng manok hahah para sa fried chicken. Pag pasok ko sa kitchen e tinago pala nila bigla ung chicken sa may sampayan sa sobrang taranta nila na makita ko...Si Jover tumawag kay Jun pero hindi naman ako kinausap...Si Nana sabi sakin asa work pa sha e anong oras na and it was a sunday.

Style nila bulok hahaha. Akala ko wala nang pupunta so nagpambahay na ko. Yun pala may mga pupunta pa. Kahit sunday night nagpunta ang mga peeps. Kaya ayun sa mga pics, ako lang ang nakapambahay...

Anyway, thanks for everyone who remembered :)... To Carlo, who never ever fails to call me and greet me on my bdays kahit ako lagi nakakalimot sa birthday nya. To Pristine who greeted me sa lahat ng cyperspace ko hahah. To Tina, who gave me a super touching blog entry. And to everyone else who remembered. Sometimes kasi when you're far away from your loved ones, you would sometimes wonder whether they still remember your special day (haha drama). Shempre thanks to Nikki, Joel, Vice and my honie for cooking up the simple yet fun Birthday Salubong.

Next year, trenta na ko. Matinding birthday bash next year. I'm planning to celebrate it sa Pinas, where most of my loved ones are. Hope to see you then!

Cheers!